Well, well, well. The Moon cycle of November has got all me all fuckered up! UGH. So we had a full moon and lunar eclipse a few days ago and we move deeper into winter and closer to Yule. This has been a really trying time for me as new witchy practitioner, a person who is in recovery, a mom who is missing her kids and as a person who loathes the holidays.

I love to hate the holidays! And I shouldn’t!! Normally, I would be swinging from the chandeliers with holiday joy and excitement. I love winter, I love the cold and dark times, but mostly, I love the pure magic that is ever present during this time.

But as of this week…I don’t have the enthusiastic holiday joy that I should.

Here’s the part that sucks…I am following my parenting plan to a T and yet, I still haven’t been able to see my kids. Why, you ask? And I get that you’re probably thinking I’m not being straight about something or whatevs…..but it boils down to this: my ex-husband and his wife are so deeply rooted in parent alienation that this cloud has blocked all judgment of doing the right thing. They are so deeply seeded in pain, fear and jealousy that they are not able to support the kids and encouraging them to have a healthy relationship with their mother. Me.

Normally, the holidays would have me working hard at staying sober. But not now…I am past the fear of falling down. Now, I am spending all my time trying to find my happiness through this dark cloud and back to my original quest: How do I show gratitude when everything feels like it is taking a steaming shit on me?

The answer??? I’m still trying to figure that out, incrementally.

So for now, the witchy part that I am really focusing on is healing and natural herbs. I am a natural Kitchen Witch as it is, but I am really diving deep and researching the healing properties of herbs and how to cook with them. There are so many books on the topic but here is a good one I am reading now:

But more excitedly, I am reading a lot of Sabbats and Feasts to incorporate my witchy and kitchen witchery into. I am BEYOND excited about a book that is set to launch in the first two weeks of December. I am eagerly waiting for it to arrive on my doorstep: